One of my most treasured self care rituals is taking a bath and this evening as I lay there in warm soothing water (my element as a Pisces) I thought of what to post here on my blog; and it came to me - sharing my journey and path to jewelry and love of gems, tarot and the Occult.
I will not shy away from saying or writing that word - THE OCCULT - because in my mind it isn't bad or riddled with horrible things but of magic.
When I was in my early twenties I was at my lowest in self confidence and direction. I was lost; and of course I got into trouble. I went through so much inner pain and anguish and filled the deep void within myself with material objects. And as with many individuals whom get lost, I found faith. First through Christianity but eventually I became fascinated with the old gods, with their tales and myths. Mind you, I've loved storytelling since I was a child in middle school. Their tales gave me hope and renewal.
Fast forward roughly ten years, I still had some emptiness inside but I learned to channel my fear and doubts with keeping my hands busy. A thought formed in my mind of melding my two loves - faith and adornment. Ritual adornment has fascinated me since I was a girl attending the traditional catholic church and prayers. I loved using the ritual beads and iconography.
Thus I continued my passion for making jewelry and became fixed on turning it into a career. As humans, our nature is to create culture - to embody the Gods by also making and forming with our hands and mind. And I'm most happy and fulfilled when I'm being creative and not just in the studio but in my garden, my kitchen and with spirituality.
When I moved to eastern North Carolina I was thirty years old, at a precipice of venturing into the wonderful world of jewelry and metalsmithing. I'd found my calling and it felt liberating to embrace it and take the leap. It changed my life moving to North Carolina, and it's not so much the place but the people I met that challenged me.
So my tale has come here, to a happy and growing place of contentment and exploration. I hope that it gives you hope to leap, and the net will appear.