For some reason it's really hit me over the past several weeks how overwhelming it's become to be a stay at home mom/working mom/part time worker. Maybe it's because Tallulah is now 5 months old and we're reaching the age where she's really becoming a person, aka laughing, smiling, babbling and almost eating real food. I lay in bed at night mulling over my business, how to be creative and make it all work. I know, it is a bit unrealistic to 'make it all work' because really it won't ever be perfect. And I can't have one part of my life be fantastic without one chunk of it taking a hit.
And I want to share this with you because I want to be transparent and also provide some background as to why it's taking me SO long to get new designs and pieces on the website.
I also know that as a consumer myself, I like seeing new and fresh ideas come from the makers and people I support as well. I'm slowly learning how to schedule my free time, with sketching, creating, organizing my studio and workspace along with finishing custom orders, regular orders AND the upcoming holiday show schedule.
I volley between feeling completely overwhelmed and lost to determination and resolve to prioritize my time. What usually ends up throwing my confidence is when I do the comparison game, and knowing that there is SO much that I want to improve with my business. Then my mind spirals into an abyss of all the tasks I want to accomplish.
So here it is folks - it's going to take me time and understanding to get to a place that flows. In the end I have to say that I'm incredibly blessed with a supportive family and worklife that allows me to spend time with my daughter as well as run a business that I love. Last week, as I sat at my desk journaling these exact same feelings a giant swell of emotion came over me - I am doing what I love, what I envisioned close to twenty years ago when I was only dreaming of becoming a creative person. And I knew in that instant that I am willing to fight and work incredibly hard to keep my dream alive. It may sounds cheesy but in this current world where many individuals feel helpless or unworthy, one can not take for granted the opportunity to do what you love.
I hope that this post gives you encouragement to follow your own dreams, because it is worth it. Allow yourself to dream to incredible heights with limitless possibilities. It is what gives the rest of us hope and light.
thank you for dreaming and allowing me to dream!